So here’s the post that’s been sitting in my drafts for 5 months. Now I remember why. Can you say controversy?
I overheard part of a conversation today. At the time it bothered me but, hey I was eavesdropping. You don’t just butt into a conversation, which includes someone you don’t know, and start passionately spouting scriptures. But as I lay in bed trying to go to sleep, I had this whole imaginary conversation going through my head. I couldn’t stop thinking about it and felt like God wanted me to share. So here goes, I hope you’re blessed.
The gist of the conversation that I overheard was a woman with an infant, stating that as she had just turned 30, she would have no more children. It was her own personal decision that she had stated to herself and her husband that 30 was the cutoff date. No more. Statements like that always break my heart. I was pregnant with #5 when I turned 30. I get it. It’s hard. I don’t have the energy or stamina now at 40 that I did then. But I can not even imagine my life without the 3 blessings that came after I hit that momentous birthday. 2 precious boys and an adorable little girl.
God states over and over in His word that children are a blessing, and the blessings of the Lord have no sorrow added to them. He knits together each and every one of those precious gifts, one chromosome by one into an intricate double helix of incredible variety and complexity that staggers the mind. The God of the universe, who said “Let there be light” and it appeared, not just 1 light, but billions of stars in hundreds of galaxies; the God who holds all things together, who sends rain, and sunshine, and flowers and mountains, oceans and all the incredible variety of creatures, who knows the hairs on our heads and when a sparrow falls, He plans an incredible gift, an eternal soul, to give to our family, and we say no thanks…How arrogant and selfish we are. We tell the creator of all things “you’ve made a mistake”. I’m too old, poor, not a good enough parent…you fill in the blank.
We let fear of the future, fear of what other people think, and selfish desires get in the way of obedience to God. Do we not believe Him when his word says “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”? As the lyrics to one of my favorite songs goes “You are strong when you feel weak, in your brokenness complete.”
We need to base our actions on what scripture teaches. My God doesn’t make mistakes. If I’m pregnant, it’s because He wants me to be. He has a plan that is greater than anything I can imagine, for that child. His thoughts are so much higher than mine.
Now to those people who say “well God told us to stop at 2″…or “God has told us we’re done” etc. Let me be as gentle about this as I can. If you say “God said…” you have just made yourself a prophet, speaking the very words of God. You better not get it wrong. He doesn’t need our help to close the womb. Now I know I started this post off saying I felt God wanted me to share so let me state for the record. I could be wrong! I do not presume to speak for God, I’ll let His word do that. Search the scriptures for yourself. Be Berean. Do not take the wisdom of this world and try to fit God’s word in to it. You change your thoughts on what is right to fit the scriptures. I FELT this way, I got no peace trying to go to sleep. Like the old prophet Jeremiah, “But if I say, “I will not mention his word or speak anymore in his name,” his word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.” Jeremiah 20:8-10 I’m just saying I was not going to get any sleep, until I did what I felt was His will. And I’m going to sleep on this before I publish it because the last thing I want to do is be a stumbling block for anyone.
I have so many faults it’s not funny. So many things where God is not finished with me yet. So I hardly feel I can tell anyone what is right and what’s wrong. All I know is the passion that burns in my soul on this subject won’t let me be quiet. We need more godly children being raised as arrows of light in this dark world. With swords sharpened and shields of faith at the ready, to do battle with the god of this world. To take dominion of the earth and rescue those being led to slaughter. Can you find it in your spirit to be used by God to raise one more than you FEEL you can? Adopt if you can’t have any yourself. Take some child who might never have the privilege of knowing Christ otherwise and raise them up as a mighty man or woman of God. Or present your body as a living sacrifice and give birth again. You won’t regret it.